Thursday, September 4, 2008

Sometimes you have to find a way to see the rest of the milk in the glass.

Well I am sorry to say that around 11:30AM this morning Aunt Flow came and paid me a visit. So it is very clear that I am NOT pregnant ( I don't know what it is but when I say that phrase I always feel like I am one MAURY SHOW, "And William is NOT the father!") Yeah yeah I know not funny!!! Anyways I am proud to say that despite my disappointment, I am very glad that my pd. came as opposed to me taking a test and getting a negative result. I hate taking pregnancy tests. I just get so much anxiety, it's like I know it is going to be negative, but I still secretly hope that it will be positive. So I thank God that he was gracious enough to have my pd. come when it did. So I did not have to take a pregnancy test.

Unfortunately its arrival has sent a certain things into motion. The first is I obviously need to go get an ultrasound done on Monday. Fun, Fun! And well another serious thing must happen. You see these past few months William, Dr. W. ,and I having discussing William getting tested. Well this month was the cut off point, both William & I decided if I did not get pregnant this month we would get him tested. So guess what he has to do on Monday!!! And I am sure that all of you reading this have gone through this either in my shoes or William's. I feel so bad! But I know it has to be done. I know this has to be so hard for William, and it means the world to me that he would do this despite how uncomfortable and awkward it will be. I just love him so much and I thank God for him EVERY day!! There is no one more perfect for me, that could be there for me during this difficult time. He is truly amazing! Any way if anyone has some words of wisdom for us about what is coming ahead of us, please share!

And as usual thank you so much for all the kind thoughts and check-ins. I love my blog family!


Alex and Jill said...

I'm sorry AF came today, girl. :(

Bless your hubby's heart. Alex was uncomfortable the first time he had to go in and 'give a sample' as well. It's good that they are running an SA though...just another thing to check off the list of possible problems.

Praying for you guys!


Anonymous said...

Just reading your post, and I'm going to tell you something that I wish someone told me...For your husband's SA test, find out what testing criteria your doctor's either WHO (World Health Organizationh) or Kruger (strict testing) see, our OB uses WHO and DH did two seperate tests with them. But RE's use Kruger, so we had to do it a third time...the first two were, time, and embarassement down the drain. Just a thought...let me know if this is confusing :)

Misty said...

WE went thru all of that. And I will just say, that his test may be "embarrassing" for him, but I know for some fo the tests I did, I would have loved to have just done his test! HA! Good luck with everything. I know it is hard, trying & frustrating. But you are not alone, and many of us who now call ourselves "Mom", have already been down your road.

Sarah said...

Reading your blog brought tears to my eyes, we to have been trying since last July. I am also a teacher, I have the same welcome letters on my door! It makes me feel better knowing that I am not the only one going through all of this. I had a crying fit yesterday telling my husband i could not take this anymore- it hurts so bad when you want a baby so bad. I just wanted to let you know how much I appericate you sharing your story.