~CHANGE~

I was catching up on my shows this morning and I was watching last weeks Brother's & Sisters. If you didn't already know this about me, I am a MAJOR TV junkie. I developed this addiction while we were trying it was a way to take my mind off everything we were going through and focus on the fictional comedies & drama's of television. Now I must say that if I did not have a DVR I would not be able to watch all my shows because I only watch them when I have time. Am I proud of this no, but everybody has their thing. =)

Cast of Brother's & SistersAnd a conversation between two of the sisters, Kitty & Sarah, really hit home for me.

Just to give you some background info about these two characters. As I said Sarah & Kitty are sisters, Sarah has two children of her own. Kitty on the other hand has been trying to get pregnant for a while and was pretty much told that there was not much else the Dr's could do for her and her husband. So they turned to adoption, they were blessed to find out that they were chosen by a birth mother and will be getting a baby very soon. So as you can imagine I identified with her character more.

So during the conversation this is what was said, "I spent so much time worrying about if it was ever going to happen. That I didn't have time to think about what it was going to be like when it did." "I keep telling myself that things are not going to change that much and EVERYTHING will change."

So your probably wondering where I am going with all these rantings. Well when I heard this I realized that I was facing some of the same issues. I keep saying that this is not what I thought pregnancy was going to be like and blah blah blah. And William & I have talked about what we think things will be like in September. But to be honest I think we are in store for an EYE OPENING experience. Because yes everything I thought being pregnant would be and feel like is not like what I have been feeling at all. I thought for sure that I would be sick and miserable. But that is not at all how I have felt. Yes I have been extremely moody (just ask my sweet hubby) and tired, but I have been so blessed not to be sick at all. And thus far I think I have had a wonderful pregnancy and I thank God for that every day!

So yeah I am TERRIFIED of all the changes that are coming both mine and William's way but I know that God will prepare us. In my opinion that is why it takes 9 months to have a baby. And why you start waking up several times in the night from the beginning every time nature calls. It is all God's way of preparing us for what is to come. So with realization I hope to keep my perspective and keep focused on the PRIZE "the blessing of a beautiful baby".

Oh yeah speaking of changes check out digital Eggie, he/she does not look like a sea monkey anymore!