A Word of Thanks & Other Rantings

So I would like to start off by saying thank you to all the nurses, doctors, and other staff that work at fertility clinics. I don't know about the clinics that everyone else goes to but I know that the nurses and doctors as well as the rest of the staff at the clinic I go to is is amazing. These people do all that they can to help William and I get pregnant as well as other couples who are struggling to conceive. These people are always so patient and kind with everyone. And are always willing to answer questions no matter how stupid or how many time they have been asked. They are just amazing!!

You see I went this past Saturday for my monthly progesterone level check to see if I ovulated. Which I did 9.85 (Hoorah!!!). Anyway My favorite lab tech nurse, Jessica, was there she is always so nice and always puts me in a good mood. She always makes me laugh despite my anxiety of needles! And most importantly she knows how stressful it is to wait for test results so she tries to get them done the same day!! Which William and I so appreciate!!

Another reason that I love these wonderful folks is because of the following. Monday morning I woke up in severe pain, coming from my abdomen. Usually this week during my cycle I do get cramps but this pain was much worse!! I was miserable and scared that something was wrong, I decided that if the pain kept up until 8 AM I would call my doctors office! Well unfortunately it continued, I made the call and left a message for my nurse, Sue. She called me back by 8:30 AM. I explained what was going on and she patiently listened. She said that I might be having pains from ovulation or some part of that process, but that she would check with the doctor to see if I needed to come in (Of course she was very thorough in her explanation). She said to try and relax (RIGHT! HA!!) and to not do any intense activity and to call her if anything changed. Well I laid in bed for like 4 hours and could not take it anymore (props to all those women who are on bed rest or have been on bed rest!!), she said I could walk, so I decided to go do stuff around my classroom. As the day wore on the pain was still there, but not as strong, but still uncomfortable. I decided that it felt like I was on my period (i.e. bloated and crampy).

I survived Monday and this morning it did not hurt very bad at all, but I still hung out in bed as long as possible. And as I went about my daily routines, if I did too much activity it started to hurt a little. And all throughout yesterday and today my mind was RACING!!! I am wondering if there is an egg implanting? Is there more than 1 egg implanting (is that why it hurts so bad)? What if I am going through ALL of this and I am STILL not pregnant!! I don't know about the rest of you but I hate these drugs they give all the same symptoms to make you feel like you are pregnant even when you are not.

I am wondering if anyone out there has had these symptoms or has any idea what is wrong with me? If so please comment and let me know what you think.

I already HATE Brad and Angelina

US Weekly is breaking the news right now that Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie turned to in vitro fertilization to conceive their newly born twins, Knox and Vivienne. IVF is typically used when a couple has trouble conceiving, but in this case Us says Brad and Angie just wanted to speed things up.
"They conceived through in vitro fertilization," a well-placed source within their camp tells Us. "They both desperately wanted more babies soon."The chance of having fraternal twins at Angelina's age (33) naturally is under 1 percent; with in vitro, the chances are 25 percent. Says Dr. Arthur Wisot of L.A.'s Reproductive Medical Group (who did not treat the couple), "We live in an era of reproductive freedom, so anybody can do anything they want within legal limits."The actress chose the procedure (which can cost around $12,000 a pop) so "she wouldn't have to deal with the stress of trying to get pregnant," the source tells Us. "She could just knock it out." http://wwtdd.com/

Well for us normal people i guess we will just have to put up with the stress and heartache. i wish i could just snap my fingers and have steph pregnant but i dont make stupid movies. This just pisses my off they already dont take care of the kids they have there just handbags to the stars. well im out before i put some really mean stuff on here.

Why is it when things SUCK they really SUCK!!!!!

Sorry it has been so long since I posted, it has been a crazy last few days. I had an amazing day on Friday. I hit the gym and then had an 80 minute massage (It was amazing). I came home and had an amazing evening with my wonderful hubby. We finished the evening by watching "The Bucket List", if you haven't seen it, it is really sad, so bottom line we both went to bed sad. The horrible things started because we are currently waiting for my egg to drop. So last week I bought the $30 ovulation kit that shows a circle or smiley face. (I have never wanted to see a smiley face so bad), but anyway On Saturday morning I still had not seen a smiley face. And William had a to-do list a mile long to get done before my birthday BBQ that night. So he headed over to his parents house to borrow the mower, but somebody was using it. So he decided to weeded instead and it broke while he was using it. So we decided to borrow my parent's mower and they said no. Finally we decided to head to the grocery store and when we went to pay my card would not work (how embarrassing) so I had to write a check (which I hate doing!). It just seemed like we couldn't do anything right, along with the baby thing looming over our heads.

Then things started to brighten up! Somebody came and mowed our lawn and William started cooking the chicken. Everything was going smoothly and everybody showed up and we had a GREAT night. Here are some pics from the night.

My Birthday Cake (William baked for me)

Matt & Grace

Chef William

Our Family
All of us Playing Rock Band (So Much Fun!!!)

So I am sure right now you are thinking, "It doesn't seem like things were THAT bad". Well today is Wednesday and yesterday I took my last ovulation test and I never saw that stupid smiley face!!! So I am super depressed and terrified at the same time because Saturday is my blood test and if I didn't ovulate I am sure our Dr. will call us in for a consult and go over what is next. That is whats scary I think whats next is surgery for me, and I am terrified. I never dreamed that getting pregnant would be this hard!!!! Why does life have to be so challenging!!!!

William writes in

Well Stephanie wanted me to write on here also so ill see what I can do. Stephanies birthday is sunday so shes ready for her presents and her party tomm. night. This month makes one year for our baby making and its getting hard i never thought id have to deal with anything like this but were not in control of our lives. Maybe its my fault i hold her hand and kiss her but unlike gradeschool rules shes still not getting pregnant I even shot down a stork during duck season to see if my baby was in there but it wasnt. When I told our doctor both things he said i was close but we needed to try a few more things like dotors visit after doctor visit even on sunday morinings at 8:00 im supposed to be sleeping in on the weekends. Im sure we will get our baby soon enough so thank you for the support and the e-mails.

How do we NOT make it the CENTER of our life?

I know I said we started this blog because we wanted to get connected with people that are going through the same things we are. And we still feel that way, but we also want to share our lives with others and use this blog as a way to document all the other amazing things that are going on in our lives right now. There are other things going on, like my new teaching job. That was such an amazing thing to happen to me because "baby making" was starting to be the only thing going on in my life, since I finished school this past May. But God has brought an amazing thing into my life. I have been able to put all my energy into getting ready for the new school year. Which in turn has taken some of the pressure off "baby making", despite the fact that this month marks the one year mark that we have been trying to get pregnant.

Another wonderful thing that has happened in our lives is our very best friends, Grace & Matt have had a new baby boy!! And he is absolutely beautiful! He was born on May 21 of this year.

His name is Michael

So Handsome!

And I know that with all the issues that William and I are having with having a baby of our own, being around Michael should be hard. But in all honesty, we love being around him! We just love him so much! And it always puts us in a good mood when we are around him.

There are also a lot of other things going on that help us get through this trying time. First and fore most we just came back from a week long trip to Hiawassee, Ga (do you here the banjos??? hehehe j/k) with our best friends Grace & Matt and my husband's family. Which is another post in itself pictures included. I don't know how we would be able to get through this time without them!!! They are amazing!! Grace is my sister from another mother and is always there for me no matter what. Matt is always there for William whether it is to work on very demanding projects, like our boat, or just to hang out and have some fun. So I guess a big Thanks is due for Grace & Matt, Thank You for ALWAYS being there for us!! We Love You Guys!! Of course there are many other friends and family that provide us with the love and support that we need. So thank you to each and everyone of you, you know who you are. Especially Annie, Devin, Lauren, & Adam, who are also there for us and never forget to check and see how we are doing!! You guys are the BEST!!!!

So what are some other ways to not make this whole "baby making" thing the center of our lives? Any suggestions or advice would be greatly appreciated!!

Our Story-"Being Reproductively Retarded"

If you read the "about me" section of our blog you know a little about William & I and that we started this blog because we wanted to share our story and get connected with people that are going through the same things we are. You see we have been trying to get pregnant for about a year now. I have a syndrome called Polycystic Ovaries, so I have been on hormone treatments since January. It has been a trying year for William and I. At first, when we went into the Dr's office last December and finally found out what was wrong we were somewhat relieved to be able to put a name with what was going on. January was a good month because I ovulated and it was only the first time I had taken the drug. But unfortunately I did not ovulate again until May. So you can only imagine the trying time we had month after month of being let down by not ovulating. Then when I finally started ovulating the disappointment only grew because despite the fact that I had ovulated I was still not pregnant! We try really hard to remember that it is in God's hands and that we will have a family of our own soon enough. So we try to be positive and hope each month is "Our Month". I try and read on the Internet about people that have struggled with getting pregnant but, eventually succeeded but it is still hard. With all of our friends and family having babies all around us it feels like we are the only one's who AREN'T pregnant! Our friends and family try to be there for us as much as possible, but they have trouble understanding what we are going through. So we are hoping this blog will help us meet people like us, who do understand.