Scary things REALLY do happen in OCTOBER!!!

So I know I have been the words worst blogger this month. I am having a real hard time making time for our blog. And I need to be posting because it is sort of theraputic to write out what is going on in life as well as with our baby making process. So I am making a promise to all of you who read our blog as well as to myself to at least post once a week with either life news or baby making news.

Well as the title says a lot of scary things have happend this month. William has kind of been the lab rat this month, going from doctor to doctor, having sonograms etc. Because the infection as they originally called it did not go away. Well after a really embarassing experience with the Male Fertility doctor we have come to find out that William has what is called Prostotitis. Basically he has extra white blood cells in his sperm. And they don't know if he really does have an infection or if he just has extra white blood cells. We don't know, but the doctor said he was putting him on this medication and vitamin E to help clear up what has been going on. So basically after this month William and I are EVEN (for right now) when it comes to things we have done to try to have a baby.

So I know your thinking , "Now that is not so scary" the scary part has to do with me. Well I was told at the doctors as you probably remember that I was going to be allowed to take clomid this month and next month as long as I ovulated. Well last Thursday (day 23) I got an unfortunate surprise, I got my period. Which I thought was really strange. I knew something was wrong, because I was supposed to go in that Friday to get my progesterone level tested to see if I ovulated. Well when I went in on Friday I told the nurse what was going on and she said she wasn't sure what was wrong, but I SHOULDN'T have gotten my period. But she said lets do the blood test and see what the results tell us. Well the results came back and my number was "NON OVULATORY" So the nurse said that the plan is to give me a few weeks off and when William comes in again to do another S.A. to come with him and we would sit down and go over what was going to happen next. She said that we were moving on to shots. And I don't know if I ever told you guys but I am TERRIFIED of shots!!! And the idea of myself or William administering them to myself is horrifying!!
I was talking to a friend the other day, saying that sometimes when you have wanted something for so long and you keep being rejected, eventually you kind of want to give up. And that is how I feel I kind of want to give up. And I know that sounds ridiculous when some of you have gone through so much more. But I am REALLY scared of the needles. I want to keep trying so I decided what I need some guidance from those of you out there who have been through this stage. I want to know what to expect. I need preparation for what exactly is going to happen. So if you would help me with that, it would good. You see because this is NOT a battle that I nor William want to be defeated in, so we just need some help.

October updates

So I know it has been forever since I have posted and I am so sorry for that. Things have been really crazy with school and going to Gator Games. I usually post on the weekends but every weekend there seems something to do, usually Gator related.
So here I go with the lengthy update...
Well about the 3rd week into my cycle I started feeling really tired, and nauziated. So of course I told myself "Don't get too excited Stephanie, it is too soon." But as all of you know you just can't help but get excited. By the time my last week started I was convinced that I was. But on day 29 my period came. So I was heart broken. So William finished the antibiotics this past Monday and it was also day 5, so time for my monthly probing. (I know TMI) but anyway. So since William was done with his antibiotics it he needed to make a "deposit" as I call it. Also our dr. told us that we will be allowed to stay on clomid only for this cycle and the next and then we are moving on. So that was a lot to take in. As you can see we had an eventful Monday.
Well I called Tuesday morning to get the preliminary results of the test. Our nurse said that unfortunately not all of it cleared up, but it shouldn't effect us from trying normally, without including an IUI. Now this is obviously my irrational side, but I felt that we go ahead and do an IUI so that we COULD get pregnant. But that is not how our Dr. felt, he seems to be confident that we should be able to get pregnant on our own.
So our nurse called Wednesday and said she spoke with our dr. and he wanted us to be referred to the Male Infertility dr. in our clinic. So we have an appointment this coming Thursday. So hopefully we will know more soon! I promise I will write in and let you know what happens soon.